It is no shock or surprise that I am grossly dissatisfied with my house. While I love the location, and truth be told it does fit my family nicely, it is old and in constant need of aesthetic repair. I dream of a new(er) and bigger house, preferably on an acreage.
What I dont want is an increased mortgage. We are at a point in our lives where we have unstable long term income (due to me not having a permanent position, something that is very difficult to come by in pediatrics). I never want to be house poor, so I sit and sulk in my affordably mortgaged house.
Perspective really is a beautiful thing though, isn’t it? Because of this unstable income, I was able to let my girls sleep in until almost 9 and then take them for a little breakfast date
Following a quick stop to the grocery store, we played outside. Our backyard isn’t anything special to look at, but I love it. It is a great size with a concrete pad perfect for biking and chalking on and lots of grass to run and play with the dog. The kids have a trampoline, a slide and sand and water table, a playhouse and their bikes to play with. I sat back with my coffee and my study material, and I just got it. This is what matters. This is what makes me happy.
I got to watch my girls run and play, giggle and conspire, help each other and work out disagreements peacefully. I had the privilege to study for a course under the sunshine while taking in the smell of fresh cut grass and sunscreened babies. I put Gracelyn to bed after lunch and then went back out with Abby for another few hours.
These are the things in life that matter to me. Being present with my girls is a privilege somewhat unique to my profession, and I am so grateful for it. I need a little nudge from the universe some times to refocus on what in my life actually makes me happy. Sitting in a big new house thinking about all the time I miss with my girls working to afford it would probably take away some of the sweetness. I need to remember that I am absolutely, positively blessed to live in a house that has so much love in it. I am so fortunate to have two amazing little souls that I am lucky to call mine, and an amazing, supportive and loving husband who I fall more deeply in love with daily.
Life is sweet and I am happy. What could be better?
I am blessed for what I have, and what I have can’t be bought for any amount of money.